Better Without you

I dared to step out
out of this shell I've hid in far too long
I stepped on the sand
without you
I stood in the water
my hands hugging me tightly
I inhaled the ocean air deeply
my soul came back to life
my eyes saw clarity
without you
i found myself again
without you
it is way far much better
I went back to the places we were
without you
I made new memories
I thought it was black and white
but without you
I scream at the top of my lungs
because my eyes now see the grey areas
you don't know
till it happens to you
without you
it happened to me
am held
held even when everything falls
I didn't know who I was without you
but now I do because am in better hands now
without you
I dared to stand where we stood
without you